No need for Oxygen

Uneasy as I write this and wonder where all oxygen has gone suddenly. I close my eyes, breath in and expand my lungs to feel the gush of wonderful air going inside only to find that there’s nothing except venom; venom everywhere. I breath out immediately and cough; cough hard. Where has the oxygen gone? Why do i need it? Why can’t I get to where I don’t need it? There’s no time to ponder upon these thoughts. I’m dying, feeling the urge to breath you inside; live with you forever. Fill my lungs with you and put life into my dying self…

1000 People

A thousand people yell
They’re shouting my name
But I want to die in this moment
I want to die

And a thousand people smile
They’re smiling at me
But I want to die in this moment
I want to die

No way to understand
Why I’ve become the way I am

When the sky is filled with stars
I find a place inside my heart

Some people can take a blow
And they won’t ever drop
But I want to die in this moment
I want to die

She will tell me she loves me
That she won’t ever stop
But I want to die in this moment
I want to die

The coldness in my soul
And I reach out for her to hold

And then I watch her close her eyes
It’s only me that needs to cry

And if I stay with you
Do you believe that I’ll pull through?

No way to understand
Why I’ve become the way I am

When the sky is filled with stars
I find a place inside my heart
And then I watch her close her eyes
It’s only me that needs to cry

A thousand people yell
They’re shouting my name
But I want to die in this moment
I want to die

…Blackfield “1000 people”